Whatever. Whatever, whatever. these days, the only thing i actually look forward to is going for YO. And after the 12 July, I think everything will dissolve. Whatever. Whatever. I can't bear to give up the idea of never playing for a concert again, never going to another concert. I don't want 12 to come! NO NO NO. URGH. Was watching the dvd taken of our Mozart Requiem Concert at VCH with the International Festival of Chorus, Metro Philharmonic Choir and City Choir, and I realised that sheesh. This isn't ever going to happen again after the 12. I hate this. You said you love shooting and cannot bear to give it up. Girl, I totally feel the same way about this. It's just something that makes my life complete. It's like losing a limb. Whatever, whatever. Am I the only fool to feel so much for this? To let go of something I've done for 9 years of my life? I can't even put into words what I feel. Forget it. You either understand it or you don't.

Anyway, I'll say this to carve the memory of my last concert.
SNYO Concert
12 July,
7.30pm
VCH
Tickets at Sistic.

We're playing the beautiful Shostakovich's Suite from "The Gadfly", Op 97a. Beautiful beautiful piece to end off and lots more.. yeah.