Grad night came and went. I looked freaking fugly that night. GROSS. That's my own opinion. Anyway, I won't say I thoroughly enjoyed grad night. Poooooffff. It was more like a show and tell session for everyone. Everything about it was fake. Eeeww.. Ok. I'm probably the only weird soul here who doesn't like it. But then again, I'm weird. Even my violin teacher who has known me for 10 years said so. My frequency is way off. Although I conceal my weirdness really well around people who haven't known me THAT long. Coz once they know me, they realise I really live in my own world. Oh wells.. Take it or leave it. that's just me. And I love the way I am now.
I'm getting sick! Yuck. And I wish I could go on a long holiday, somewhere cold and wintery perhaps. But its not gonna be the case. i'm so bored here in Singapore. And what's worse. Everyone's pairing up. As in getting attached. So it's always like "oh.. but i'm going out with (insert their bf's name)..some other time perhaps?" Haiz. Sometimes i just like to sit at Orchard and watch the couples. It's so sweet. But then, it's like giving an empty house a new coat of paint, romanticism on the outside but loneliness inside. And then there's always this nagging feeling that Oafie's going away. So it's like on top of that loneliness comes sadness.. oh wells. Sometimes I think all who become close to me just end up leaving me. Not in a bad way, but we'll always be separated by the physical distance between us. I think it's fair, in a way. Afterall, I'm not so much a home and hearth kind of person. So it only makes sense that like and like can be close friends. hmm. I should stop mopping around and feeling sorry for myself. Coz it's dumb. I think I'm going town tomorrow to find Oafie.