It's the eve of Christmas eve and here I am, in the quiet solitude of the night playing out my thoughts.

I've been thinking alot about God, about life, His purpose and role in my life, my future, my friends and relationships. All the questions that only the lazy days of summer induce and resolve. I guess we spend so much of our time planning for the future, so much of our time building for the future. But we spend much lesser time looking to the One creating our future. The source and provider. Increasingly, I feel less of the urge to plan but more of the desire to do my best in whatever I'm put to do. To understand God's character, to learn from the Master. To learn to obey more and demand less. To learn to listen more and speak less. To be quick to forgive and slow to anger. To be more patient and less stubborn. To be more humble and less proud.

I visited Mrs Lai today. She asked me a simple question but like all simple questions, it was profoundly difficult as well. I had my answers to them, but I could not put them into words then. I think she must have been disappointed in my answer even if she didn't show it. She asked what I would see myself doing at the end of this life on earth. She had opened it to Becky and I. I thought Becky had given a good answer - one that I would have given myself - only I would have qualified it a little more. Becky said that saving a few souls would be enough. In my conversation later at night with Jen, I told her the answer I was struggling to put into words this afternoon. I thought that saving souls were a given. The only thing left is to reflect the glory of God in everything I do (everything being God's purpose in my life) and that in so doing, I bring people to Him. That is, to do the very thing He created you to do and in so doing, extend the kingdom of heaven. This is because I believe that God's purpose for us is multi-fold. His plans fit perfectly like a jigsaw. God had planned for every Christian to spread the message, bring salvation to the unbelievers and ultimately glorify Him. This was the fundamental purpose God had for everyone. (I believe.) It however, was not the only purpose He had for us. He made us all with unique talents from which we draw on to fulfill this fundamental purpose. These special talents were His secondary purpose for us in our lives. In effect, by doing His purpose in our lives, we accomplish all that He has set out for us and that includes saving other non-believers because it is all in His grand plan.