To tell the truth, I am pretty scared for it. Very in fact. But really, I realised that the only reason for my fear is pride itself. Pride. And now, I realised that I'll do my best. Whatever the result, God has a reason for it to happen. Let it be. "Therefore, don't worry about tomorrow, because tomorrow will worry about itself.Each day has enough troubles of its own." Matthew 6:34.
These days, I sleep without remembering to pray or I think I'll talk to Him the next day and the next. But I always forget. I'm so sorry Lord! Yeah, so I decided that no matter how tired I am, I will have my quiet time with Him. Afterall, who needs more of my attention than my Creator Himself? Even if I spent my whole life talking to Him or doing His work, it would not be enough. He has given me more than I can ask for. And somethings in my life, though imperfect have its own silver linings. And yes, I'm very thankful, for all of it. I think someday when I get to Heaven, I'll ask my Heavenly Father who resides there why He puts unpleasant stuff in my life and until then, I'll be grateful for those. Good or bad.
Sometimes we wonder why should it be. And when everything's over and the event has blown over, do we realise why it should be. Many circumstances in my life has been this way. Countless. That sometimes, its no longer a why, but a when.