it's been so long and a hell of emotional ride for me. I miss Oafie and Charm so much! It's so different to talk in person and on the phone and I've been blasting my phone bills making overseas calls. I miss you, Oafie! I miss you loads and loads and loads. I guess God has a reason for everything. Maybe this could be a blessing in disguise. We never know, we never second guess Him and maybe you're right that good comes out of everything. Maybe you're right too that we'll be happier elsewhere. I just miss you so so much. Sometimes I think WHAT THE HELL. It's NOT everything. And maybe it really ISN'T EVERYTHING. At the end of the day, its back to the same question of "SO WHAT?". I think He's speaking. To move on. To spread your wings and fly. There are alot more out there than this. And indeed there is. We're just too contrived, too stiffled in here. One day, we'll look back and think what the shit. I chased for something that I thought was my dream but all it turned out to be was just the illusion of a dream. The glitters of it, but not the gold. I've said enough. But then again, its what I don't say that bothers me the most.