the music, the madness...

Just came back from SNYO..and here i am, waitng for mommy to cook and doing my pw. YO was great. Every rehearsal, i just kinda feel like we improve, albeit sometimes a little, but still, we improve. And sometimes, so much! :) I'm really looking forward to our concert on the 3rd.

I have been pondering alot about my future these days, and I realise more and more each day, that I've been too conditioned into wanting the sciences, sometimes, I don't quite feel I live and breathe on it. Although I must say I still love Chemistry and Biology... If I had the power to turn back time, I won't think that my only future is to be good academically. I mean, if one is good in areas other than academic, why not turn professional? Sometimes, to take the road less troddened is really a blessing in disguise. Unfortunately, we never really understand life until we've lived through it. So here I am, stuck in school, not unhappy, just resigned. I prefer things in hazy grey, where freedom reigns on interpretation, where one can really escape into another world, to see the beauty in the unexplained, to hear the music in its madness and appreciate the finest of things in its natural glory. Why should we strive to explain the unfathomable? To make the simple complicated? It's really random, I know. But it's what i've felt for so long. I honestly don't quite care if Mendel counted his peas or not, or if Darwin really thought we were once monkeys. God made everything, so however much we try to make out of His creations, somewhere along the line, we'll surrender in defeat and gaze in awe at His greatness and power. If we know it would come to this end, why not just enjoy what He has made? It's all so bewildering. I don't understand. Science.

On a lighter note, there will be church tmr! I can't wait to see Jannai, back from Canada and little Luke, if he comes. There's really more to life than stupid grades and the ever so bleak future for those of us not born with a silver spoon in our mouths.